I’m f*cking confused

BANGKOK. My apologizes for not being very communicative here since about 2 weeks. The last week in China as well as the first week here in Bangkok, Thailand, have been quite hectic and I didn’t really find or take the time to sit down and do a blog post. Neither did I get the chance to do a podcast which is quite disappointing. I really wanted to release one per week and now I’m already 2 weeks behind. I’ve to seriously kick my ass and get back on track.

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The main problem I’m currently facing is that I’m simply confused. I don’t know what I want. It’s a very bad place to be in. You gotta know your goals otherwise you will never reach anything.

The last days I spent on 3 different events about million dollar Tech Startups, eCommerce and IoT. It’s been really inspiring and interesting but I didn’t really felt home in any of the environments. I also got the chance to catch up with old friends. One of them runs an inspiring great company.

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The company I’m talking about is Kaidee. It’s like gumtree of Thailand with 130+ employees in a google like office on the 14th floor. My friend Tiwa is the CEO. I would also name him as my mentor as talking to him always inspires me. The way he runs his company is simply amazing and I already said one day I will have a great company culture like that. Friday at 16:30 his team literally walked left their office chairs right into a little party. Every Friday Tiwa organizes some little event for his team. Everyone seems to be super happy working here. The offices even have a bedroom. You can do what ever you want as long as you get your work done.

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More to my confusion. My mind is circulating around the following topics:

Virtual Reality, as the technology is comparable to the first days of the internet right now. There is a massive opportunity. No one is an expert yet. This is the time to get into it.

Organic aquaponics and the disruption of the organic food industry in general. I see massive opportunity for innovation. More and more people want to live healthy.

My charity in Kenya which I’m super proud. We just finished the painting of the dome home and are now preparing for a massive media campaign to raise funds for the new school buildings. Though there are a couple of conflicts I’m facing within my ethics in regards to the sustainability of such an investment. We really need to have a long term plan in place before touching such a project.

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And lastly my own life. Where in the world do I want to settle for the next 6 month or years? I need to settle somewhere to get back to effectiveness but at the same time I don’t feel I have found the place yet. And so I’m continuing to drift around. On Monday I’m off to Chiang Mai catching up with friends in the Digital Nomad scene. In a few weeks I’m going to Australia to catch up with a friend in the organic food scene. Bali in Indonesia and Japan are also on the list. Bali to get an idea of the DN scene down there and Japan because of it’s interesting culture, technology developments and financial problems.

Afterwards I want to go to the U.S. specifically Silicone Valley and Dallas. In Dallas my friend Ed will give me a dive into real estate to get a taste. Silicone Valley is obviously the place to be if you want to be in tech. And that’s where I see myself.

I’m not going to be a digital nomad. My vision is by far too great and doesn’t fit into the “4 hour work week”. I want to work 80 hours a week. I want to wake up every morning full of excitement and rush to work. I want to hate weekends because they delay my progress. I want a life where I don’t want to escape from but that at the same time is effective and productive to impact the world.

I remember my time in Zambia in 2013 where I was managing a biogas plant construction site. Gosh I hated Sundays you can’t imagine. I wanted progress. I wanted to see my baby growing as fast as it could. Every Sunday I felt was a wasted day.

For me TIME is the only thing that matters. It’s non-renewable. I want to achieve greatness and at the same time I want to be effective with my time.

 I would trade all the money in the world for time. 

And in fact, I am doing this with my savings. I’m on a fast lane to learn thanks to Tai’s accelerator course.

My goal is to build a multi-million dollar company before I turn 30 years old. That gives me about 2 years and 3 month.

I’ll make it happen.

Till next time,

Torsten

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